[smear:#19b0e6]I lost myself that night I threw it all away Those are the things I've hated Then I went and caved in I'm a mess right now My heart is in two places Half is back at home The other's off and racing I've been Running and running and running and running away I know they'll catch me Running and running and running two opposite ways Two opposite ways I can't let my past catch me now, me now I can't let my past drag me down, me down I lost myself that night I threw it all away Recall my mother's words But it was far too late I feel the burden now It's weighing down my soul And I can't catch my breath 'Cause these demons follow I've been Running and running and running and running away I know they'll catch me Running and running and running two opposite ways Two opposite ways Swear I've changed But you don't care that I'm not the same You'll always haunt me I swear I've changed But you don't care that I'm not the same I can't let my past catch me now, me now[/smear:#9619e6:0]
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Basics
Full Name | Denim Hugh Walker Nicknames | Den Birthday | November 10th Gender | Male Sexuality | Straight Occupation • Student Grade | Senior Age | 17 Club Affiliation | Washington SOA Charter Relationship | Single
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Appearance
Face Claim | Gavin Casalegno Eye Color | Blue Hair Color | Curly Brown with blonde highlights Skin Color | White Scars/Markings | Do emotional scars count? A few scars here and there from abuse. Build | Tall and thin.
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Personality
Love It! •
+ My family + My friends + Riding my harley + Being a part of the club life. + Briar Rose Scheetz + Spending time with my family.
Hate It! •
- Garner Scheetz - Lying to my family. - Not being able to face people. - Getting lost in my nightmares. - Being Afraid. - Not being able to be myself.
Strengths and Weaknesses •
+ My family. + My friends. + The club - My family - My friends - Briar Rose Scheetz
Fears •
• That Garner isn't really dead. • Facing reality sometimes. • Being hurt again.
Dreams •
• That the last two years never happened. • Feeling like myself again.
Full Personality: •
Well let's see. I care for those that are my family and friends. Maybe a little too much sometimes. Dad says I wear my heart on my sleeve. I feel empathy deeply for others. My emotions can be all over the place and that sucks sometimes. I hate lying to my family. It makes me sick to my stomach, but sometimes you just have to lie. That the truth is hard to handle. I can go above and beyond for my friends and family.
[smear:#800080]Positive Traits:[/smear:#808080:0] 1)Nature-Focused: Preferring natural resources over artificial ones; being strongly attuned to nature. 2)Courageous: Possessing the mental or moral resilience to face opposition, danger, or difficulties despite one's fear. 3)Empathetic: Able to recognize and identify with the emotions of others. 4)Discreet: Intentionally unobtrusive; conducting oneself with care, sound judgment, and a respect for privacy. 5)Just: Having a strong sense of fairness. 6)Passionate: Being capable of or expressing deep feeling.
[smear:#808080]Negative Traits:[/smear:#800080:0] 1)Pessimistic: Inclined to focus on the negative and expect the worst possible outcome. 2)Perfectionist: Perceiving anything less than perfection as failure. 3)Withdrawn: Detached from others, having retreated inside oneself. 4)Nervous: Having an uneasiness of the mind or a brooding fear. 5)Stubborn: Unyielding or obstinate. 6)Defensive: Marked by the need to defy aggression or attack.
I don't remember mom that much. I was little when she died in a car accident with my grandparents and her sister my aunt Hailey. A drunk driver ran into them killing all of them. I know it's hard for dad and Uncle Hugh to talk about my mom, but dad's always answered us when we have questions about her. We have pictures of her too as well as our grandparents and aunt. Dad's been great raising us. I know I can go to him for anything. Though sometimes you just can't especially if your not the only one involved. Uncle Hugh moved in after the accident and helped dad raise us too. I can't imagine life without Uncle Hugh around.
Life wasn't always easy, but we were happy. I grew up on a ranch outside of Watonga Oklahoma. Riding horses and helping herd cattle. I have my own horse Gus who knows all of my secrets. I used to go for rides back in Watonga and tell him everything. He was a pretty good listener. It's not like I could talk about it to anyone else. There was too much at stake. Too bad it was all for nothing, and others did get hurt.
Briar. She's been my best friend since we were in the cradle pretty much together. I would do anything for her. Even get hurt in the process which I did. I have the scars to prove it. Inside and out. I put myself in the situation though to help her. We pretended to be a couple. I thought I was protecting her and her sister's, but It was a joke on me. On Briar pretty much too. Almost two years of abuse I took till we moved here to Washington California. Her dad was supposed to be in prison again. Unfortunately he got out on good behavior. I hated leaving her and her sister's behind, but Crocker, her older brother wasn't able to get custody of them.
Then one day we found out Garner was dead. Briar's dad. I broke down then when I heard she was in trouble with someone wanting to take custody of her lying that they were family. I told dad everything. I thought he would hate me for what happened, but he still loved me. Unfortunately our talk was cut short when someone knocked him out and I was kidnapped. Getting put through more hell than I had been before. This time though even my younger sister and younger brother were kidnapped later that day. The Watonga son's got us all back though and saved the day. Too bad they couldn't take back what I had been put through. I haven't talked much since then. I spent a couple of days in the hospital too. Well here in Nevada City. I wanted to be here so I was brought back along with the others. Dad, my siblings, and Uncle Hugh came to me.
First time I left the ranch was to Sturgis with the rest of the Jr club and all of the Son's of anarchy. I felt like I was a ghost of myself going through the day. I finally talked to Briar some. Finding out I was the father of her baby, but I was numb. I didn't know how to take that one or really how to feel about it. I broke down that night to dad crying and he told me that things would get better. That he was there for me. He wasn't going anywhere and neither was the rest of my family.
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Role Player
Username • Denim Age • 52 Cbox/Discord • Angie How Long Have You RP'd? • Over eighteen years Comments • No How Did You Find Us? • Made the site with Cindie Any Other Characters • See Who Plays Who
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RPG Sample
Rayne sat away from the others somewhat. As it seemed like everyone was paired off but for him. Or they were with their friends. They’d been back from Sturgis for only a few days, and his dad, Rowdy, and Cain were throwing a bash at their place to try and take off some of the stress from what the trip had been. The Oklahoma boys and his dad, and Cain were taking turns getting up on the stage and singing. Oh and even Clyde had gotten up and sang. Their kids called out songs for them to sing, and they’d pick one from one of them. Of course his dad hadn’t asked him. It was mainly his baby brothers and once in a while Rafe or Ryder would yell out one.
Sturgis hadn’t really been any fun and he and his brothers had never gotten that tattoo that he designed. With all hell breaking loose everyone was on high alert the next week so his father and brothers had forgotten about it. He’d slept off and on that next week after what had happened to him. At least the stitches had gotten taken out finally so he didn’t have that discomfort. Though it still aches some, and Stephanie had said it probably would for some time as hard as he had been hit. It itched and bothered him, but he refrained from messing with it not wanting to get it infected as it was healing. The bruises were still there, but not as bad as they had been.
His dad’s attention today was either on Rosanna or his baby brothers most of the time. Feeling tired and left out he got up to head inside to his room. Rafe and Ryder’s attention was on their new found girlfriends. His gaze fell on Athena then who was talking to some of the other kids in the Jr Club, and there were a couple of guys that she was laughing and having fun with. He felt a pang in his heart, and weaved in and out of people to head inside. A stray tear ran down his cheek as he got inside, and he quickly brushed it away. He hissed in his breath at the pain when he had forgotten a moment about his wound. With a deep breath he headed up the stairs when he came up on them.
It wasn’t that much of a walk down the hallway to his room. The pounding of the music and the roar of the crowd outside was inside the house too, and it was giving him a headache. So all he wanted to do was lay down and take a nap. Opening his door a sound caught his attention. Looking up he gasped as there were a couple of guys in the room with their girls having fun on his bed as well as Simon’s bed. He gaped in shock for a few moments, before turning bright red not knowing what to do. He jumped when one of them yelled at him to get out. Quickly he ducked out his head pounding even more and realized then that he wasn’t alone upstairs as he saw others in the hallways too.
Looking up and down the hallways he noticed people going in and out of the theater rooms too. Walking down to his dad’s room he thought he might find some relief in there, but his dad must have locked his door. He tried Rowdy’s and Cain’s finding both of them locked. There was nowhere to go he realized, and he headed back down stairs trying not to cry. That wouldn’t look good in front of the sons around. There was a lot that he had no idea who they were. Including the ones that had been in his room having fun. Feeling lost and really left out he turned at the stairs and a drunk son knocked into him knocking him down. He saw stars when his head hit the corner of a baseboard. Laughter was heard, and then they ignored him. Sitting up he held his hand to his head, and when he pulled away there was blood on his head.
He cringed as his head was killing him even more now. Pulling himself up he hears something crash and shatter somewhere. His vision was a little blurry now, and he felt the blood trickling down his forehead. There had to be somewhere that he could go, and he thought of the garage. Making his way down that way he put the code into the door knowing it had been locked up for the party. His dad was taking any chances with his panhead with someone messing with it. Once the door shut behind him the sound was suddenly gone as the garage seemed to be soundproof. His ears were ringing though from the never ending sound from before.
With an unsteady breath he made his way over to his bike not even fighting the tears now. Sitting on it he laid his head down against the cool gas tank and the sobs came unable to stop them. He wasn’t feeling good at all, and when he lifted his head a while later there was a lot of blood on his bike. Had to be from where he had hit his head. A ride might help him feel better was his thoughts, and he got off pushing his bike out a side door, and around some bikes getting on his bike after making sure the garage was locked back up. If it wasn’t his dad, Rowdy, and Cain not to mention the others with bikes in there would kill him.
Starting his bike he rode down the driveway with the guards not even looking twice at him as there were sons and jr club members coming right and left. Tears were still streaming down his cheeks and there was still blood trickling down so his vision was still a bit blurred. Right now he didn’t care, he just had to get away, and hopefully clear his head. His dad and brothers as well as the others would probably never even notice he was gone. They were having too much fun. A while later he realized that the ride wasn’t helping, and he stopped not even knowing where he was. He hadn’t been this way yet. Only the other direction into town. The throbbing in his head was even worse, and all he wanted was his dad right now.
Turning his bike around he tried to wipe the tears away and the blood, but it wasn’t helping much. With a deep breath he headed back. With his vision obscured, he didn’t see the cloud of dust coming down a dirt road not far away. When he turned on the next road thinking he was going in the right direction the car came out of nowhere. Unable to stop he ran right into it, and he was suddenly flying through the air. The impact of hitting the road knocked him out.