I'm a take charge no nonsense person most of the time. Kids could get away with a lot of things though as much as I love them. I wear my heart on my sleeve for those that I love with all my heart. I'm outgoing and love to volunteer for things going on in Tucson. I love to have parties and entertain our friends. I'm a caring, nurturing person, and I love to take care of people. I feel a sense of pride and purpose in what I do. On the inside though I hide the pain of losing my father and older brother ten years ago. As well as the fact I haven't been able to get pregnant no matter how much we try.

[smear:#e63619]Positive Traits:[/smear:#00ced1:0]
1)Sensible: Characterized by sound judgment and keen awareness.
2)Centered: Maintaining a healthy life view that promotes equilibrium; emotionally stable and focused.
3)Efficient: Carrying out tasks effectively; being productive with one's time.
4)Nurturing: Having the desire and ability to nourish and further the development of others.
5)Observant: Paying careful attention to details and other things.
6)Protective: Inclined to safeguard, shield, or carefully supervise the persons or items in one's charge

[smear:#00ced1]Negative Traits:[/smear:#e63619:0]
1)Stubborn: I tend to do what I like and not be swayed by others.
2)Impulsive: Acting on desires, whims, or inclination without forethought. Especially it's the reaction of something one of my younger brothers have done.
3)Insecure: In my job not at all, but with guys it's a whole other story. Lacking confidence and surety.
4)Perfectionist: Perceiving anything less than perfection as failure.
5)Jealous: Characterized by suspicion and envy.
6)Evasive: Having an unforthcoming manner; avoiding self-revelation.

When I was younger we had the picture perfect family. A loving one. Three children and our parents. My brother Jordon was ten years older than Joshua, and Josh was two years older than me. I was the baby of the family, and the only girl. Jordon was our protector and savior as we grew up. If my parents were ever in need of a babysitter they would call my Aunt Judy, dad's younger sister. She was always around for holidays and other things. Jordon was usually our babysitter though.

Jordon would walk Josh and I to school everyday before going on to junior high and later on high school. Mom always made us lunches, before she would head off to work. Dad, if he hadn't already left for the day, would give us hugs and kisses, before we would head out. Holidays were always full of love, and joy. Our parents even though they worked hard for their money would over indulge us. Then work overtime so that they could make up the amount they had spent.

My brothers and I had chores to do at home, and we learned to earn the things that we received or wanted. We never wanted for anything, but we never took it for granted either. My best friend was Shae Matheson. Our fathers were really good friends and brothers in the Sons of Anarchy motorcycle club. His older brother Ren was really good friends with my brother Josh. It was always us and the Matheson's together. Our families would get together for BBQ's and other parties.

Jordon prospected the sons with dad sponsoring him when he turned eighteen. He'd gotten his Harley when he turned sixteen and he would give Josh and I rides when dad wasn't able to. I loved those rides around town on the back of their bikes. After a while with them busy it got few and farther between, but Josh and I understood.

We were a couple by the time we turned twelve. Had our first kiss at our first junior high dance. He'd actually asked me to go with him to the dance. We danced the night away, and it was a night I would never forget. When I got home Aunt Judy was there too with mom. They were eagerly awaiting all the details from the night. I gushed for hours on end about my first real date.

For my thirteenth birthday I got a horse that I had been wishing for. How my parents realized I wanted one I don't know. I had only told Shea about my wish. Surely he hadn't told them. I took lessons, and I started to show horses and do barrel racing at the rodeos. I was pretty good, and I loved it. Especially my horse Pali. She was a Palomino just like I had wanted. We won lots of prizes together and ribbons over the years. My parents, brothers and most of the sons including the Matheson family were always there to watch me.

I became an aunt when I was fourteen. Jordan and his girlfriend had a little boy named Jordon Michael Cahill Jr. On Jordy's second birthday Jordon was late, and dad went to find him. Josh had gone with him along with Ren both of them were prospecting to the Tucson son's now. They came back about a half hour later. Jordon had been in an accident, and he didn't make it. Mom broke down screaming as did Jordon's girlfriend Sadie. They were engaged to be married, but that wasn't going to happen now.

The funeral came and went. I was devastated at the loss of my beloved big brother Jordon. Josh was too, but it was something we never discussed as it hurt too much. Things between mom and dad deteriorated after that. She said she fell out of love with him, and she cheated with some guy she had started up with at where she worked. She left us for him with her and dad getting divorced. Things were going from bad to worse in our lives.

My sixteenth birthday came and dad and Josh took me to buy my first bike. I had been saving up myself, but dad surprised me as he paid for it in cash. It wasn't totally brand new, but a couple of years old. It was turquoise green, and what I had been dreaming of. I had been elated finding it, and dad said if that was the one my heart was set on we were getting it. I let out a squeal and gave him a hug. I gave Josh a hug too, but he just shook his head. I couldn't wait to show Shea my bike later. He'd already gotten his bike on his birthday.

Josh and I grew closer. Not like we weren't before, but we more than had one another's backs. He was now prospecting to the sons along with Ren, and they would become Son's soon. Unfortunately it wasn't meant to be. My dad and brother were on a toy run. Supposed to be just a regular one. I hadn't been allowed to go on this one though. I wasn't there when I should have been to protect Josh's back like we had been. Dad and he were killed along with Shea's father. Gunned down by Mayans. There had been five sons killed that day, but those were the three that hurt the most.

I was now on my own. Aunt Judy was instantly there when she heard the news. She'd called mom, but mom had moved on and was starting a new family. She wanted nothing to do with this or even me. The funerals were a blur to me. I hardly remember anything from that week. Shea and I had no time to be there for one another. Each of us grieving, and needing one another. Finally we were able to get to one another, and we comforted one another. That was the night we lost our innocence to one another. Both of us needing one another.

My Aunt Judy took me in and raised me after that. My life was like a shadow of itself. All my family was gone. Sadie had gone back to Texas where she was from taking Jordy with her after Jordon had died. We did keep in touch though, and she and Jordy had come for the funerals with her parents. She had gone back to Texas though. I called when I could getting to talk to my nephew and keep up on his life. Aunt Judy was a lawyer, and worked a lot. She was always there though for school things, and she had a knack for knowing when I needed her. She loved Shea, and I had confessed what we had done. She told me just to make sure and use protection.

On graduation day Shea proposed to me. Of course I said yes. I loved him more than anything as well as all of his siblings. We had a June wedding. Of course mom didn't come. I had sent her an invitation, but never heard anything back from her. Aunt Judy gave me away to Shea, and it was perfect with just the Sons of Anarchy there. Sadie and Jordy had showed up at the last moment right before we walked in. I had given them hugs with tears in my eyes. One of the sons escorted her and Jordy up to my side of the church. The only ones I had except for Aunt Judy.

I was gaining a lot of family though that I already loved. It was a beautiful wedding and another memory I would never forget. I knew that my dad and brothers were there in spirit. When Ren gave his best man's speech he mentioned that my dad and brothers were having a party up in heaven celebrating our marriage. My maid of honor was my best friend Jenna who was a year younger, and dating Shea's brother Rafferty. His sisters Brecken and Khaleesi were my bridesmaids walking down the aisle with two of their brothers, Rafferty and Declan.

We went on a honeymoon to Hawaii, and we more than enjoyed ourselves. It was hard to go back to our lives after what had felt like a fairytale. I worked my way through college with Aunt Judy's help getting a degree as a Nutritionist and got my Dietary Manager certificate. I got a good job through college, but ended up working a couple of years later at the high school and junior high cafeteria. I absolutely loved working there with the kids.

I was also helping raise Shea's younger siblings now. After we had gotten back from our honeymoon Ren had split his responsibilities between us two and him. After we had the hang of things Ren left going nomad to track down the rest of the Mayans that had attacked the Son's that day. He swore he would get revenge for my father and brother too. He was gone for months, but he got the job done. I wouldn't have minded going with him, but I had my own life to live now.

A couple of years went by and Aunt Judy and I talked every day as I did with Sadie and Jordy. When Aunt Judy didn't answer I had Shea take me over to her house. I could have gone on my own, but I had a gut feeling that I shouldn't. Ren, Rafferty, and Declan came with us. When we got there I knew something was wrong. We found her floating in her pool that had turned crimson from her blood. I had screamed seeing her, and Shea pulled me away from the scene. Cops were called and we found out she had been shot three times falling into the pool. Still in her work clothes from the day before.

Shea and his brothers figured out who had done it before the police. Ren and he had started a bounty hunter business after Ren had come back from hunting down the Mayans. My brother in laws and Shea apprehended the woman responsible and turned over over to the police. Shea was right there by my side as I had to plan the funeral. Sadie and Jordy were unable to make it as she had some family problems of her own going on.

The funeral was packed though with all of the Sons and their families. Some Aunt Judy had helped out over the years. She had been loved by all of them with her being family to the club. She had lots of friends herself that were there. She was laid to rest in the family plot by my father and brothers. I really don't think I would have made it through without Shea there supporting me. At the dinner I fainted, and was rushed to the hospital as I was bleeding too.

Come to find out I'd finally gotten pregnant, but due to the stress I had lost the baby. I was heartbroken and I knew Shea had to be as well. Even though we had no clue that I had even been pregnant. We grieved together and he took me away for a couple of weeks back to Hawaii where we had our honeymoon. It was time that we needed together. To grieve together and start to heal from our loss.

When I got back my aunt's lawyer had contacted me. I didn't want to deal with anything like that after what we had been through, but I went. I hadn't realized how well off my aunt had been, and she left me everything. Along with the inheritance from my father. It had been in the Cahill foundation so I hadn't known about it till now. Jordy had gotten an inheritance as well. One that was under my care till he came of age according to the will. I am a very wealthy woman now. I hadn't realized how much family money that my father and aunt had come from. With the foundation I was learning a lot and in charge of it now.

Pali was around ten years old when she died from some kind of virus that the stable didn't catch in time. I haven't gotten another horse, but one day I may. I have boxes of trophies and ribbons that I won with her. As well as prize money that I had put into my savings over the years. She had been one of my best friends, and didn't send her off to the glue factory. She's buried on some family land outside of town.

While I had been going to college Shea had prospected to the sons with Ren sponsoring him. In turn he sponsored Rafferty after him. Time has passed and Shea and I have been married for nine years now. Unfortunately I haven't been able to give him a child yet. He says we still have plenty of time left to have our own family. We're still raising his youngest siblings. We are now moving to Washington, California. Since Khaleesi has her heart set on teaching, no one will hire her in Tucson. I already have a job as the Dietary Manager at the High school. We didn't tell her that or that she already had the job. She had her heart set on getting the job on her own. When we pulled into Washington we stopped at the General store while she went on down to the hotel. A show I would love to watch, but knew she had to do this on her own.